After re reading some of my other posts, I realized that most of my positive productive feelings happen after the fact, days or even weeks. I don’t know about you but I wish I could feel them sooner. Life has been hectic but, I realized that the finish line was just up ahead. I could breath easy.
But then I thought wait. The majority of that feeling is coming from the last day of the school year. Does that cheapen it?
Decidedly No. The finish line is the finish line, enjoy it.
I was doing a “fun” run the other day that was horribly, miserably, not fun at all. It was suppose to be a relaxed outing where I would meet new people who enjoyed trail running, but then I realized, oh wait these are all elite athletes. I mean look they are already at the top of that hill. That isn’t normal, I mean they are running up a hill. Who does that? After getting to the top, I was in such a bad mood I couldn’t even enjoy the view. It took me another couple of miles for me to really come out of my funk. Then it came to me. Relax, enjoy this, run your own race. Which amazingly brought me some calm. I mean don’t get me wrong I had to go up another hill and that calm was vaporized, but it came back, because I knew it was there. Which is more then half the battle, (said the women who finished nearly last).
But the finish line was sweet, even after my 3.5 hour mental tantrum. I came back and people were still there, and cheering me on. I did a graceful leap at the bottom and asked, “Am I last? Is that a thing?” Anyway, people laughed and told me to grab some food. The person in charge of the free race was making eggs, pancakes, and bacon for everyone.
And there I was again, running is the best thing ever. These are my people. Soda, pancakes, bacon. I love this. This is awesome!
Ahh. The finish line, which can seem so elusive. But there it is, I can see it.