Sometimes life goes your way and sometimes it doesn’t.  But its going to keep moving either way so, feel your feeling, get your head wrapped around it, and then get your shit together.

I was recently (kinda) diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis (RA).  And I say kinda because, although I have had all the blood work done and have tested positive to auto immune disease, specifically RA, they are unwilling to diagnose me because I do not have swollen joints.  So I have to wait 2 months to get an ultra sound of my joints to confirm my doctor’s suspicions or to find out its something else…worse?  better?

Limbo is exhausting.


And this e card is sad but true.

I feel like life is spinning out of control.  I mean all my body issues on top of all of normal life stress, and building a house stress, and potential house inspection stress, and, and, and….

But everyone has stress.

In all the madness, I would lay in bed exhausted and in pain and look at Instagram pictures, like its Vogue magazine.  Pictures of happy people with no problems, running in beautiful places.  I know not really productive, AT ALL.

But then I found this quote.

attitude effort

I have lots of sad and negative things to say.  When my blood work came back I cried everyday for 3 weeks.

But the only thing that I can control at this point in my life is absolutely attitude and effort.  So I’m going to control what I can and make the best of it and maybe inspire or motivate a few people out there in the process maybe.

I’m going to keep doing what I can and celebrate the little things.  It could be a 3 mile run or 8, who knows.  I’ll be patient with myself.  Then at the end celebrate the miles, clear head, and outside time with a cold beer and a friend.  I will celebrate anything I can right now.

I can do this.  You can do this.  We can do this together.

Attitude and effort.  Smile more, pay it forward.