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I need to be more positive.

I am a realist, who has glass half-empty tendencies.

But with life right now, I need to be more positive.  To celebrate the wins.  Just the everyday small wins that we over look all the time and chalk them up to life.  But no, lets celebrate the wins.

My husband, Eddie is always on me about not wearing my shoes in the house.  It makes the floors dirty, I wouldn’t know as quickly because I well, I wear shoes so I don’t notice.  But he will bring me my house shoes now and say thank you when I remember all by myself.  An everyday win for him.  And my husband is finding my shoes and bringing them to me.  So sweet.  We are both winning.

Today’s little wins:

  1. I got up with my alarm
  2. I made coffee to go
  3. I scrapped my windshield before I had to leave, so I wasn’t late
  4. My son Everett, got up and dressed early today with no reminders
  5. I ate a delicious breakfast burrito and felt full and ready for the day

These all happened before 8.  Life is good, I mean its been downhill since then.  Ha ha ha! Just joking.

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Life is hard, and busy, and fast, and crazy.  Slow down.  Celebrate the little things.

 

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Monthly Goals: October

Fall is my favorite time of year.  Hands down.

I love everything about it.  Cool temps, hot drinks, fires, changing leaves, dramatic skies, first snow falls, and pumpkins, lots and lots of pumpkins!  It has been amazing to experience Fall for the first time in our new home with big mugs of hot chocolate earned after stacking wood outside for a long time, or so it seemed.

I’ll be honest.  When I sat down to do this I couldn’t even remember what my goals in September had been.  And that’s okay.  We all have months like that.  These are little goals that we use to make ourselves better, not perfect in 30 days.  So, if you miss the mark thats okay.  Try again next month.  Its ONLY 31 days!

September in review:

  1. Rest your body for the long runs (they are the best anyway) YES
  2. Drink more water NO
  3. Follow recipes, not a dash of this and that (it doesn’t taste good) NO
  4. Wear earrings (yes this is a goal – dress it up!) NO, because we moved and I forgot my jewelry.
  5. Continue all my August goals WHAT WERE MY AUGUST GOALS? NO

This month, I will make goals, that will make be productive and be a winner!

  1. I will buy a pumpkin and decorate for Halloween
  2. I will buy a professional grade windshield scrapper
  3. Brainstorm ideas for an Open House Halloween Party Combo
  4. Stop for a second and take a picture
  5. Wear more jewelry
  6. Drink (water, coffee, cocktails, do it all!) #winning

Last month was hard for me, but that was last month.  Here we are on October 2nd with the future straight ahead, it could be pretty special.

You do you and I’ll do me.

Sometimes…

Sometimes life goes your way and sometimes it doesn’t.  But its going to keep moving either way so, feel your feeling, get your head wrapped around it, and then get your shit together.

I was recently (kinda) diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis (RA).  And I say kinda because, although I have had all the blood work done and have tested positive to auto immune disease, specifically RA, they are unwilling to diagnose me because I do not have swollen joints.  So I have to wait 2 months to get an ultra sound of my joints to confirm my doctor’s suspicions or to find out its something else…worse?  better?

Limbo is exhausting.

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And this e card is sad but true.

I feel like life is spinning out of control.  I mean all my body issues on top of all of normal life stress, and building a house stress, and potential house inspection stress, and, and, and….

But everyone has stress.

In all the madness, I would lay in bed exhausted and in pain and look at Instagram pictures, like its Vogue magazine.  Pictures of happy people with no problems, running in beautiful places.  I know not really productive, AT ALL.

But then I found this quote.

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I have lots of sad and negative things to say.  When my blood work came back I cried everyday for 3 weeks.

But the only thing that I can control at this point in my life is absolutely attitude and effort.  So I’m going to control what I can and make the best of it and maybe inspire or motivate a few people out there in the process maybe.

I’m going to keep doing what I can and celebrate the little things.  It could be a 3 mile run or 8, who knows.  I’ll be patient with myself.  Then at the end celebrate the miles, clear head, and outside time with a cold beer and a friend.  I will celebrate anything I can right now.

I can do this.  You can do this.  We can do this together.

Attitude and effort.  Smile more, pay it forward.

 

Monthly Goals: September

Well August was literally a kick ass month, in terms of goals.  I mean there were a few hiccups but they were not goal related.  I feel really good about myself.  I set some goals and worked to make them happen.

That’s all you have to do.

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Lets be our own heroes, who make goals, keep goals, and become that much more awesome each day.  We are all role models.  Make it count.

September goals:

  1. Rest your body for the long runs (they are the best anyway)
  2. Drink more water
  3. Follow recipes, not a dash of this and that (it doesn’t taste good)
  4. Wear earrings (yes this is a goal – dress it up!)
  5. Continue all my August goals

September is knocking and its time to think up some good goals.

My dad always says, “Elizabeth, life is a marathon, not a sprint.”  I interpret this to mean, just make one or two goals, that won’t break you but will help make you a better version of yourself, one day at a time.

Come on people lets do this together!  What are your goals?

August Monthly Goals: Check

So..who knew that writing down monthly goals and sharing them with total strangers would help me be honest, motivate, and keep moving forward (in what looks like a straight line I might add).  Well I didn’t, but now I do.

My August Goals were:

  1. Take Eddie’s head lamp, get up, drive to a trail, and run 1 day a week
  2. Get up early, sit on the porch, and drink coffee
  3. Pick a day, push snooze
  4. Put my phone down
  5. Find a few meals to take to work for lunch
  6. and relax and enjoy ever last minute of summer time fun!

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So in the spirit of honesty, I didn’t really do number one, but that was because I worked really hard to find other time to hit up the trails, when I could see them.

Number 2, check.  I love that one.

Number 3, check.  Not as productive but a day to skip things and feel good about it.

Number 4, hmmmm.  50% on this one, its just so easy to waist time on when you are tired.  It will be continued into next month.

Number 5 and 6, crushing it!

I have also been an over achiever and I know that not every month will be like this, hell, it may never be like this again!

  1. I have been stretching!
  2. Taking a break from running to let me body heal.  I hate this but its gotta happen.
  3. Taking action toward my dream by volunteering for the Wasatch 100.

Who am I?

A woman of actions, that who.  September be warned, I’ve got my eye on you.

 

 

 

Pay it forward

Do you remember that movie?  You know about the kid who did all these great things and just said pay it forward and it sparked the best in people?

Well here is my story.

The other day I found $200 at the supermarket.  I told management and they took my number but no one has called.  I was in the same store and checked in just to make sure and still no one had inquired.

I felt totally conflicted.  Literally envisioning an angel on one side oh my head and a devil on the other.  I wanted to spend it all on me and new clothes, and getting my eye brows waxed, you know how it is.

But that didn’t seem fair.  So I decided to give some of it away.  And since then, I have been handing out $20 to all the people I pass that are asking for help.

The first time I did it, I was a bit nervous.  I had to get out of the car to get to her.  She was probably about my age but homeless, hungry, and had cancer.  I started walking over to her and she looked at what I was giving her and she burst into tears.  Asked to hug me and said thank you a dozen times.  I told her to be safe and try and take care of herself.

That was worth it.  She was worth it.  Eyebrows just don’t compare to a person being able to eat or bath or sleep safely.

The next was a pregnant mom with 2 kids.  It was so hard to see.  My son was in the car and asked why I gave her money?  Why does she need it?  Where is her car?  I explained the best I could.  People fall on hard times and everyone needs a little help and today we are in a position to help.  He then had a million more questions….sometimes teachable moments are hard.

But worth it.

Pay it forward, big or small.

Dear Summer, You are the best. Forever yours, E

August 21 is officially the end of my summer because it is the first day of school.  And while it is sad, I’ll be okay in a couple of days because I love teaching and I’ll settle into my new school year groove.
This summer was amazing as I have said before.  A month long trip, beaches, Disney, mountains, running, snow cones, camps, happy kids, cabin, and amazing friends donating a ton of time to building our cabin.  

Its been hard to with annoying foot pain, sudden knee pain after summiting a stupid moutain, endlessly working on the cabin, having everett at work while I’m trying to work, blah, blah, blah the normal 

P.S. I’m crushing my August goals.

Pics to remember!

Monthly Goals: August

Oh my gosh!  How awesome has your summer been people?! Can you believe its almost over?  No.  No.  I mean I want the cabin to be done, but not for summer to be over, but I can’t have both.

I was shopping for groceries the other day (in the middle of the week in the morning and there are no one there a Momma’s dream come true!) and right before I got to the mac and cheese it dawned on me that I felt disorganized.  I don’t think it was because I was getting mac and cheese but the possibility does exist.  It is one of those safety meals I stock.

School is right around the corner!  Boo!  And the only reason I can say that it popped up on me is that this summer has been so good, and it has gone by too fast.

So, I’m getting organized now so that when my student’s arrive at the end of August I will at least have one or two thing that I can say are done.

Here goes:

  1. Take Eddie’s head lamp, get up, drive to a trail, and run 1 day a week
  2. Get up early, sit on the porch, and drink coffee
  3. Pick a day, push snooze
  4. Put my phone down
  5. Find a few meals to take to work for lunch
  6. and relax and enjoy ever last minute of summer time fun!

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These seem like good goals.  Life it crazy, stressful, and hard, but it is also great.  I want the great to be even better and that is why I need to focus a little harder on the positive. Chill out, and relax a little more.  Remember:

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Am I the only person who needs to tell myself to chill out?  I hope not.

I said meditate, not medicate.

Lets talk meditation.

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That word makes me roll my eyes and fake gag.  I mean that stuff just isn’t for me.  When I went to hypno-birthing classes for my son the midwives had us write down our most relaxing special places.  It was almost too much for me.

But I persevered.

And now I use it.  Ah! Crazy hippy mediation got me!

Do I sit down in some crazy leg tangle?  Close my eyes and say om?  No.  But I use the most important pieces of that story when things get ruff or off track enough to need to refocus.  Like when I’m at work and one of my students looses it or when my kids are throwing huge fits in time out or when running just doesn’t feel good or when my husband calls and says he busted open his knee biking and needs to get stitches.  Or the more common children playing and then screaming while I am trying to get 5 more minutes of sleep.

My midwife told me to describe a place using all your senses.  How it smells, tastes, sounds, etc.  And it really helps.  It also helps that I get to go to that place and have those feelings and senses refreshed.

Cool water splashing up around my toes and ankles.  Wet send squishing up between my toes.  The feeling of the breeze blowing through my hair and the sun warming my cheeks. The smell of salt water in the air and the taste of salt water on my lips.

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And that view.  For miles and miles.

It sounds silly but that has helped get me through some ruff times.  It may help you to find a special relaxing place for you to go to in your mind.  You never know when you may need it.

If you need to close your eyes and say om I won’t judge you, too much.

Is my strong, strong enough?

Holy shit people!  What a week.

I am just home from a long vacation in which I did a million amazing, relaxing, and joyful things and now that seems like so long ago.  I would sleep in and drink delicious coffee in the morning, that was made for me I might add.  Have drinks with adults and talk about things besides the next object my kids want to blow up.  Ahh, you only know how good you have it when its gone.

20170706_170012I mean there have been amazing moments.  But raising kids and building a house are two of the most exhausting things to me. I’m sure someone is out there doing it much more gracefully then we are but whatever.  I can only be who I am and the best version of myself is not that person.  Its even harder when I just want to run and hang out/catch up with my friends and their kids.

This is my first full week back and I put the kids in camp so I could help Eddie and spend some time with him while we work on the house.  So that has been really nice, but it hasn’t been all smiles because I have a learning curve when I am coming up to help out and I know that he is frustrated, I mean I am frustrated with myself. Plus 100 degree temps and my children begin children.

The finish line is in sight but its on one of the false flats that are just really grueling.  But I know we can make it, because we have come this far.  I just need to get my game face on, keep my head down and grit through it.  I have done some amazing things in my life and this will be another one when it is all said and done.  Anyway I like the quote I found.  I think it brings a lot of life into perspective, things are hard but good stuff is just up ahead.

Stay focused, eye on the prize.  We can all do this. (Make it till happy hour that is).